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Wild with All Regrets

A Novel

Published by She Writes Press
Distributed by Simon & Schuster

About The Book

A decade has passed since Lucas Connolly lost his best friend—and the only man he’s ever loved—in World War I, but he still can’t shake his guilt over Jamie’s death. In fact, ever since losing Jamie, Lucas has heard his friend’s voice inside his head—confused about what happened to him, begging him for help. And now, suddenly, it’s not just Jamie’s voice anymore; now, a specter who looks and acts exactly like Jamie did before his death, and who is demanding answers from Lucas about what happened to him, has begun to haunt him.

Concerned about Lucas’s deteriorating mental state, his friend Angela encourages him to move on with his life, and even sets him up with a coworker whom she suspects is also gay. But Lucas is too consumed with the secret he still keeps about the part he played in Jamie’s death to even begin to form a healthy connection with someone new—and as Jamie’s ghost begins to recover his memories and get closer to the truth, Lucas’s obsession only deepens.

Ultimately, Lucas realizes that his only path forward is to first go backward—that only in examining his troubled youth, facing his deepest self, and shining a light on the shadowed parts of his past will he finally be able to set his old friend, and himself, free.

About The Author

Emma Deards grew up in New York City and earned her undergraduate degree at Barnard College at Columbia University, where she studied Japanese literature and biology. She was then accepted to The University of Edinburgh, where she completed her veterinary degree. She remained in the UK afterward, and since then has split her time between her day job as a vet and her truest passion: writing. Emma has authored a number of humor articles for In Practice, a veterinary magazine, and was the recipient in college of two writing awards: the Oscar Lee Award and the Harumatsuri Award. Her first book, Wild with All Regrets, came out in 2023.

Product Details

  • Publisher: She Writes Press (June 13, 2023)
  • Length: 288 pages
  • ISBN13: 9781647424886

Raves and Reviews

“As much a tragic romance as it is a war drama, the historical novel Wild with All Regrets delves into sensitive topics with grace and tact . . . brilliant and sensory . . . a powerful novel in which a grieving man endures the shame of a lost love in a time and place when homophobia reigned.”
Foreword Clarion Reviews

“From life on the mean and gritty streets of Dublin to survival in the harrowing trenches of the Western Front, we follow Lucas Connolly, a gentle and emotionally battered boy with too many secrets for his tender heart to hold. Emma Deards has written a brave, bold, and essential novel, one that both challenges our assumptions about love and forces us to a broader and deeper understanding of it. Unflinching and original. . . . A book whose effects will linger long after the final page is turned.”
—Kitty Zeldis, author of Two Daughters and Not Our Kind

“A sensitive portrayal of a love affair between two young men shattered in the aftermath of the Great War.”
—Susan Weinstein, author of The Anarchist’s Girlfriend and Paradise Gardens

“Set in the era of World War One, Wild with All Regrets is a gripping page turner that takes an unflinchingly honest yet abidingly tender look at how we strive for hope and love despite the haunting violence—including poverty, bigotry, and warfare—this world can inflict. The characters of Lucas and Jamie will both fill and break your heart.”
—Judith Claire Mitchell, author of A Reunion of Ghosts

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