Unmasking the Journey from Duty to Darkness to Healing

In Hidden Scars, former NSW Police Officer Justyn Backhouse shares an unflinching memoir of life on the front lines, revealing the harrowing experiences and unseen toll of a 25-year policing career. Diagnosed with PTSD in 2021, Justyn wrote this memoir during treatment—not only as a path to healing but as an honest exploration of the psychological scars that come with being a first responder.

His journey unfolds with gripping intensity: from high-speed pursuits on highway patrol to daring rescues and body recoveries with POLAir, each experience brings him closer to the edge. It all unravels with a pivotal incident late in Justyn’s career—a traumatic moment that thrust him into a mental health crisis. Vivid flashbacks pull readers into defining scenes: the adrenaline and shock of his first encounters with crime, tragic motor vehicle accidents that challenge his views on mortality, and the violent clashes during the Cronulla riots. Each experience erodes the safety of youth, replacing it with the stark realities of policing.

As PTSD silently takes root, Justyn confronts the relentless impact of trauma on his work, family, and sense of self. He exposes private battles—panic attacks, the emotional toll on his loved ones, and the struggle to cope with the stress infiltrating every part of his life. Amidst the bleakness, his journey toward recovery unfolds, revealing the support and resilience he draws on to rebuild his life and purpose.

Through raw, compelling storytelling, Hidden Scars offers a window into the harsh realities of police work and a powerful message of healing and hope, shining a light on the courage it takes to reclaim oneself from the shadows of trauma.